God’s Secrets

When I was a young woman my grandma had a major stroke. I was angry at God and shook my fist at him. My grandma was paralyzed on one side of her body and left unable to speak. I loved my grandma dearly. She had a beautiful singing voice and she was a prayer warrior. So, as I sat beside her bed I would share with her my heart and things I needed her to pray about. She prayed me out of a bad relationship. I met my husband two years later. I told my grandma if she could sit up for three hours she could come to my wedding. The nurse told me the next morning she was trying to pull herself up with her good hand. My grandma was at my wedding eight months later.
One day, I remember yelling at God and asking Him, Why? Why don’t you just take my grandma home to be with you or why don’t you heal her? He gave me this verse to read in my devotions that morning. If you have ever read Deuteronomy it is a tough book to enjoy. However, this verse is very special to me. You see, I was six months pregnant with my first child at that time. I knew then that I will never understand all the pain in this world but I did know that God was good and loving. It was my responsibility to teach my children that God is there for us even during seasons of pain. My daughter was born in May and a year and a half later my son was born. Several month after my son was born my grandma went home to be with Jesus. You see, I think she prayed for me during her 6 1/2 years of silence. Today I rejoice as I see that my children are now young adults. They also know that we serve a great and loving God.


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